rach&kors

.Monday, September 21, 2009 ' 7:24 PM Y

-- you're always in my mind --

Should we post the picture of Rachel and Christopher? They too so loving last time loh. So sad they break up already. I want them to patch back. Christopher did ask Rachel for patch back, but Rachel haven't give him an answer yet. She don't know if she should say yes or no. If she asks us for opinions, all of us will say yes. But she really love HIM a lot, she loves HIM wholeheartedly. She is afraid that is she say no, she will hurt Christopher, as they had a very nice/good/sweet time together. Christopher always manage to cheer her up. She knows that Christopher still love her a lot, it's a fact anyway. But if she say yes, her heart isn't with Christopher, and she doesn't want to have a relationship like this. It's being unfair to thw other party, that's what she think. She's really not thinking for herself, but for others. When she cut herself, she was crying (of course), and she said she hoped that HE would be there, with her, and she won't be thinking of cutting herself already, and she knows that it is impossible. She said to us: "Happiness is the most important thing in our lifes, but, what I want is not to have my own happiness, and not think of other people, but to see other people find their own happiness, especially HIM. He is important in my life, to me. But I don't want him to be unhappy, I want him to be happy. I want others to be happy. I want to patch back with Chris, so that he will be happy, but, I don't want to patch bak with him is also because i dont want him to be unhappy just because I don't have those special feelings for him. I know he loves me a lot. I know how it feels. I dont want him to feel like this too." Haiz. She is such a good girl, but isn't cherished by many. She is very hurt/wounded in her heart, we know how she feels.

7:24 PM